Just Memories/ No Pics :(

Sometimes I just like to write things down to remember them.  Please dismiss any grammar mistakes b/c I really am just letting it pour out.

There seems to be a lot of loss going around lately, from the death of friend's parents to little babies Aylin's age and it has just been an emotional time.  The thing is none of the losses have been a part of my immediate family, but I still worry and hurt for these families.  Some have blogs that I read and then cry and smile and pray for those families and my own.  I can't fathom what those families are going through and all seem to really be holding on strong, and I'm so thankful that.  I worry about my little girl so much, I can't imagine my life without her and some nights I can't sleep just thinking about her.  She has always been a wonderful sleeper, and when she was an infant it worried me and now it worries me all over again.  How would I know something was wrong?  If I don't know, I can't prevent and plain and simple I DON'T like not having control over that.  There are some nights when I wake up scared to death and I get up and stare at our video monitor and turn the volume up and wait and wait and wait until she moves or snores or makes any type of sound.  Sometimes I have to fight back the tears while I wait and make myself stay put in our bedroom instead of rushing up the stairs and bursting through her door.  Tonight will be one of those nights.  Tonight she fell out of her highchair.  She seems to have a bruise coming up on her cheek and she cried for 5 minutes and then wanted me to put her down so she could go play again.  Actually, she walked over to her highchair and started laughing at it!  SILLY GIRL!  I try to make myself dwell in the present and stay positive but sometimes I can't help but think about the worst.  Oh little girl, I love you so much and am so very glad God gave you to me and hope that He lets me keep you for a very long time, preferably my whole life.  I hate that I have to work and don't get to stay with you more, but I am thankful for my job and the hours/days I do get to spend with you.  I am really looking forward to the summer when we can spend everyday together again.  I'm very thankful for your Ms. Michelle, you really seem to love it over there: love your friends, your Chelle, your Ecka, and even Codeee when he is here! But, I do wish it was me who got to spend Mon-Thurs. with you.  I love you Jewel Bug, with all my heart, to the moon and back, and forever and ever.  For all those families, most recently the Harrisons and Paynes we are still praying and thinking about you all daily! Okay enough with the heavy...

Something funny...

Aylin Jewel Bug is really into being naked!  She loves to take off her clothes and most recently her diaper too!  She takes it all off and runs around the house just cackling her little head off.  Here lately she has decided that she likes to sleep naked too.  There have been 3 mornings and 1 nap where we walk upstairs to get baby girl and are greeted by the cutest little tush EVER!  Unfortunately, we also have pee all in the crib and I really am getting tired of changing those crib sheets everyday :)  It doesn't matter what you put on her she gets it off from zipper pj's to button pj's to separates, she just likes to be naked! :)  So 2 nights ago we decided to see if she wanted to use the potty.  We told her she needed to potty if she wasn't going to wear a diaper.  She just stared at us thinking.  We carried her into the bathroom and set her down on the toilet and she started screaming!  So we took her off really quickly and said "Aylin, if you are not going to wear a diaper you have to use the potty.  She then took off running to the back door saying "yes, yes."  Why would she do this you ask?  Because numerous times a day, we tell the girls (dogs) to go potty and let them out the backdoor!  Poor kid thinks she is one of the dogs.

Something cute...

I recently posted about songs and music that Aylin loves, one of them being the iPad commercial.  You know the one and you know you are singing the tune right now... :) ...well today after morning services a few families went to Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch and that commercial came on one of the big screens and loud speakers.  We had 6 children (and 1 baby) at our table and every single child, SAT UP, SMILED, and started DANCING in their seats.  The older kids (ages 3 1/2 - 6) were waving their arms around, and the toddlers were bouncing their heads and hands.  It was one of the cutest little things, ALMOST as cute as Aylin singing and doing the motions to "Lord's Army" and "Shrink" or calling for "Toodles" or singing the "Hot Dog Song."